So there's a show on TLC and all the Miss States are ... I have no idea what this tv show is for. This episode had them broken down into teams and they had to choose clothes for an interview. They had to look professional, appropriate and trendy at the same time. Guess where they were picking out their clothes? The Cerritos Mall! The clothes that they chose (or maybe just the winning team's) were donated to a charity that provides disadvantaged women with help in the transition into the professional world. That was pretty awesome. and just had to blog about it. Miss Allofthestates was in the Cerritos Mall!

IN HALF AN HOUR I LEAVE TO GO TO BEIJING!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.economist.com/business/displaystory.cfm?story_id=10908345

Beauty and the blog

Mar 25th 2008
From The Economist print edition

Web 2.0 enters the lipstick jungle

“ARE you ready for Botox?” asks the website, getting straight to the point. To find out, you can take “the Botox quiz” (question three, for example: how close do you have to be to see your “issues” in the mirror?). Welcome to TotalBeauty.com, a new website that not only provides invaluable advice on vitally important personal “issues” but also highlights some of the most important trends in e-commerce.

The beauty industry is second only to dry groceries in the number of new products it launches each year in America. Until recently however, the internet’s potential to publicise new products has been left untapped by the beauty-products firms, which have preferred to get the word out via old media, especially women’s glossy magazines, from Glamour to Seventeen.

EPABehold this

Yet such is the irresistible power of the internet that even beauty wants the eyeballs of online beholders. In particular, in the past year or so, a glamorous regiment of bloggers has started to write about beauty products. This unnerved the industry at first, until it realised that it could use its favourite, tried-and-tested methods for getting its way—for instance, securing favourable reviews by showering the new bloggers with freebies. As a recent article in the New York Times put it, “Beauty Blogs Come of Age: Swag, Please!”

Yet while amateur bloggers scramble to claim their pre-launch samples or even exotic trips abroad (Chanel flew 15 bloggers to Paris to meet its top parfumeur), the professionals are now scenting fresh quarry and closing in. In December TotalBeauty went live, promising to become, inevitably, the “Google of beauty”. This was co-founded by Emrah Kovacoglu, who a year ago quit Procter & Gamble, where he had headed digital marketing for brands such as Max Factor and Cover Girl, to launch the new site.

For an executive at what is arguably the world’s leading consumer-goods company to quit for an internet start-up backed with $10m of venture capital may feel very 1999. But Mr Kovacoglu is convinced this is no bubble. The joy of “Web 2.0” is that ideas that were dreamed up prematurely in the late 1990s can now be pursued profitably—or so he hopes.

The goal of TotalBeauty is to be genuinely independent, which is potentially disruptive to an industry reliant on a captive media. As well as catching the reader’s eye with arresting questions such as “Make-up primer: worth the extra step?” and “How old is your skin?”, there are some hard-hitting reviews of the sort that would rarely make it into a glossy magazine. One feature, for example, names the “worst-rated hairspray”: best avoid Pantene Texturize, by, ahem, P&G.

Mr Kovacoglu is betting on several Web 2.0 trends that are shaping all sorts of businesses, not just beauty. One is the demand for independent, reliable content. TotalBeauty has signed up some of the leading bloggers, promising them a bigger audience in return for accepting restrictions on the freebies they might receive. He has also hired four full-time editorial staff. The site has already built up a vast library of product reviews.

Beauty products are particularly suitable for independent review, he says, because they are a “very emotional category for women, who want to be sure they get the right product.” Which also makes this a great sector for a second trend: user-generated content. TotalBeauty is big on getting its readers to interact with the site and with one another, and to post their own reviews. The goal is to mirror the success of sites which give a large role to customer reviews such as Yelp (for restaurants), Amazon (books) and CNET (technology).

Another recent trend, reflected to some extent in the same sites as well as in TotalBeauty, is for vertically focused websites, which focus on a particular narrow segment or community, to grow faster than big, diversified web portals.

The biggest challenge for TotalBeauty is to grow big enough to attract the attention of companies like Mr Kovacoglu’s former employer. Like most massive firms these days, P&G and the competing beauty-products companies may be keen to shift their advertising dollars online. But they are too big to want to deal with a zillion different blogs, each of them drawing only a few eyeballs into what Chris Anderson has called “long-tail” markets. “Big advertisers can’t find accessible inventory online,” says Mr Kovacoglu. “They want sites that can give them at least 2m unique visitors a month.”

After only three months online, he says that TotalBeauty is generating 950,000 unique visitors a month, which is “half way”—though Mr Kovacoglu’s eventual goal is to reach 5m in a year’s time and to be the biggest beauty website. Getting there will not be easy: this is a crowded field, with websites such as iVillage, Makeover Solutions, and Glam.com already well established, and a real possibility that the glossy magazines will make a serious attempt to create their own effective web presence. It remains to be seen if readers will value user-generated content and independence as much as the current hype predicts (and whether TotalBeauty will be able to resist the traditional temptations of the industry). Yet if Mr Kovacoglu succeeds he stands to make, er, a pretty penny.

OH.

MY GOD.

So yes, it's 4:15AM. I was walking Sy out -- he took me and Tien out to eat at India's Oven, and then he and I hung out with some of his friends at Barcopa in Santa Monica. I drove while his car was in our garage. Anyway, he was blocked in, so at 4:00AM we stop playing Rock Band (of course, right?) because I want to turn in. I grab the keys of the car that's blocking him and leave our door unlocked so I wouldnt' have to take my keys. So I get him out of the parking lot and then..I remember I don't have my keys to get into the BUILDING. Enter moments of disbelief and self insults. I can't scream, because Meg's and Jason's rooms are in the back -- and it's 4AM!! I go outside and see if I could borrow someone's cellphone because luckily I know Jason's number by heart. I actually contemplate waiting for someone to walk out / in..I see someone in a van a bit down the street so I approach him. I soon realize it's a newspaper guy, delivering papers. I explain to him the situation but he dint speak english. He heard me say "phone" and immediately handed me his. I call Jason 3x, but of course that SOB is sleeping soundly. He asks which apartment, and I point, and he grabs something inside his van -- a set of keys. I should have asked him. We (very briskly) walk up to my building and he looks through his massive keychain, puts a key in the lock and opens the door.

okay. what are the odds that a newspaper guy would be outside my apt the SAME TIME i was locked out?!?!?

Thank you, Augusto, for not making me homeless for a night.

Busy with life? Don't know what presents to get for your friends? Family? What about your coworkers? I'll do your shopping for you!

1. Know what you want? Just don't want to go get it? I'll be happy to pick it out and wait in those messy lines for you for a small flat fee of $5 per gift.
2. Don't know what you want? Some people are just hard to shop for! I'll think for you so you don't have to go through the hassle. I'll choose and get the gift for you for $10 per gift.
3. I'll even giftwrap them for you! Just $4 per gift.

(Far, large or other otherwise hard to obtain gifts subject to a higher fee based on my discretion.)

Date:	2007-08-24 11:49
Subject:	mycokerewards
Security:	Public
Mood:	begging

So I'm vying for this purse. Do any of you drink Coca-Cola products? Any help would be greatly appreciated :)
The best deal is the 12-pack of cans. Those give you 10 points. The bottles (no matter what size) are 3 points each, what a rip off! I'll take them though if you've got 'em.
Right now..i have 130 points. That means I need 5645 more points, which comes out to 565 12-packs. I think this contest is ending soon..this is really hard, considering I don't drink soda. Crap! I wish Coca-Cola made Mountain Dew..I'd have this purse by now :( Okay, so if this promotion ends at the end of the year which I think it will, I have roughly 4 months to collect points. 565 12-packs / 4 months =i need 142 12-packs each month. 142 12-packs / 4 weeks = 36 12-packs per week. er...this is going to be impossible.

Balls of Fury. Busting Balls August 29, 2007 (Aug 29? Wednesday? isn't that a weird time to come out wiht a movie? I guess they wanted to start labor day weekend early)

I'm definitely watching this movie on Labor Day Weekend. Well, I am in it.

and this is why I always say HELL YES

John Hadl, co-founder of Total Beauty, is in Advertising Age's 40 Under 40:

P&G Vet Looks to Build a Google for the Beauty-Care Business

TotalBeauty.com Aims to Catalog all Beauty Products, Let Users Review Them

By Jack Neff

Published: July 16, 2007

A look at what visitors may see this fall at TotalBeauty.com.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/video/2007/04/17/VI2007041700771.html

I definitely played ping pong against her two years ago.

Prayers to those involved in the shooting at VTech.

except for the shooter(s).

Dear Anonymous Once Again,

Thank you for the welcome mat. I think it's fair for me to say I've already been "more" in the real world than some of my college counterparts, seeing as how I was forced to be more independent than most of the people I know from a younger age. But that's beside the point.

Hmm..commitment issues. Perhaps, more so lately? I don't like the negative connotation that comes with "commitment issues." I believe it can be a very serious subject matter, not something to look down upon someone if she possesses that trait. If I am unhappy, I'll want to leave. End of story. Also, maybe if you took the effort to get to know me better, you may see a source of these so-called "commitment issues."

Kevin broke up with me. Interesting that you put "commitment" and "Kevin" together. For the record, I've gone out with 4 boys (was in a relationship with 4 boys). 3 of them have broken up with me. Plenty more have turned me down. Two of these boyfriends (Kevin included) broke up with me because, I guess one might say, I was "too committed" -- took too much time from them. They openly admitted that they didn't have time for me. I guess you can say things other than "I was too committed," such as, I was craving too much attention, I didn't give them enough space, etc. But I don't think my past boyfriends, knowing my history, should have any hint towards commitment issues. I feel that your question ("What happened to Kevin anyway?") was supposed to support your hypothesis that I have commitment issues (my assumption about your hypothesis was derived from your seemingly rhetorical that I answered question about my having commitment issues), however, ironically, he was the one who broke up with me.

And I don't know why you're refusing to reveal your identity. You're obviously afraid of something....that I will know who you are and perhaps judge you based on the content of your comment. Anonymity is the thing about the internet, you don't have to reveal who you are, just your character. Your slightly confrontational and accusational comment makes me wonder who you are more than before..but I have a test tomorrow, so I mustn't weep over mysteries now and I'll just have to settle on the fact that some people are simply..I want to use a word other than "cowardly" because I don't think it makes for a great fit. Something to the effect of "cowardly." Well, so be it. Just know that you ruined it for everyone. I guess that's why people keep things on Friends Only..aww, that makes me sad.

any advice on how to quit a job?

Date:	2007-04-02 22:35
Subject:	Weekend at OSU
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

WOW, I am TIRED. This weekend I went to THE Ohio State University to represent USC in the National Collegiate Table Tennis Championships.

So we left to go to LAX at the buttcrack of dawn on Thursday morning. We fly from LAX at 7 to Denver, then we can't take off to columbus an hour later because it was raining and slightly snowing. We had to wait in line to de-ice the plane and clear the runway. So we were delayed 2 hrs. Or maybe 1.5. or 1.75. We eventually got to Columbus and hit at RPAC (recreational playing somethin somethin or whatever).

Jordan and I were having huge troubles hitting the ball. Firstly, all my balls were broken it seems. Apparently when you fly at 36,000 feet in the air, it affects the balls. Or just KS and Stiga balls..his Nittakus weren't broken.

The next morning I participated in ACUI, which is the individual tournament (there were two tournaments going on, one individual where all you had to do was be a college student, and the other one was teams, college vs college). I played a girl I played last year as well as the new Vietnamese girl TWU got on their team. I was the third seed and beat the fourth girl so I got automatically put in the consolation bracket. I was supposed to play for the co-ed team later that day too, but something fucked up with the roster and we ended up giving Princeton a match, and Jason lost to Adam and Jordan lost to Pan and Shaila lost to Eric F. so the co-ed lost to Princeton 0-4.

The next morning the women's team played a round robin of..2 teams. It was supposed to be 3, but Florida wasn't there, so we just played Toronto. I played like SHIT. I mostly blame myself for our loss. I was cold and nervous. I don't know what that girl's rating is, but she definitely didn't play her potential. All I had to do was make a mistake 11 times 3 times, which I did. So that match was gone, and I think we lost 2 or 3 more of the singles and we were out of the championship 1-5 bracket and placed into thte 6-10 bracket. Then at 5 my ACUI consolation single elimination started, and I lost to the VA-Tech girl who I totally shouldn't have lost to. I think I could have taken her too. I was just being stupid, missing stupid shots. I need to work on being more consistent and..learn how to hit a ping pong ball. Jordan won 1st in the consolation round, so we were happy for him. Sadly Jason had to play that Victor guy from Columbia, but Jason came in second in his rr so he was in the championship bracket. We were also sad to see Eric F. lose to Carlos. OH. This next thing I'm going to say deserves its own paragraph.

The only reason Saturday day was so awesome was because of the doubles match. Jason and I teamed up to play doubles for ACUI and it just turned out that we would be playing Mark and Jasna. Okay. Mark = 2600. 2nd place 2006 US Nationals. 1st place Pan-Am Trials in SD 3 wks ago. Jasna = 2400. US Nationals team member multiple times. 2nd place 2006 Nationals (1st if you don't count Gao). Other country's team member. So Jason and I were basically fucked. Like, Jason and I, we at least wanted to beat somebody. When I saw our draw, I was sad / pissed / disappointed / looking forward to it (how many people can say that they've played Mark and Jasna? Especially 1100 players?). So then our time rolls around. I tell Jason to jump on the table like he did two years ago, when he and Jaydi were playing Eric O. and Sabrina. Man, Jason is just bad luck. That's the second time his first draw was playing against the champion of the whole tournament. So anyway, we're playing pretty well, even for playing against a 2400 and a 2600 player. I was moving well. I mean, in doubles, the ball doesn't usually travel for more than like 3 or 4 bounces anyway. I remember this one shot, I served to Mark and he tried to inside out hit it but missed. He was just as surprised as I was!! He was like, Oooh, ace! in a really low voice, LOL! I also hit a few shots where he missed. CHO! Samson informed me that since I served a ball past a 2600 player, it means my serves must be 2700. Just to let you know. Anyway, so the most awesome shot I've ever done -- it was SO FUNNY -- So Mark serves and Jason misreads the spin and pops the ball up. I'm standing to the left of Jason (cuz I'm right handed) and I see Jasna draw her hand back, ready to smash. Right at that moment, I had all the cuss words in every language in my head in 0.000001 of a second. And, at the same time, nothing was on my mind because I was scared shitless. Shitless, I say. I basically had no shit. Ok, you guys don't know Jasna, but when she backswings against a tall ball, you get the FUCK out of the way. Might be "just a ping pong ball" but mind you this is coming from a 2400 player and I have gotten bruises before. So I duck and hide my head behind my paddle while she smashes. I barely even felt the ball hit my paddle. I look up, and I see Jasna laughing, and the ball hit her (softly), and Jason's laughing harder than Jasna, and Mark runs into Jasna, and the ref is chuckling. I'm like huh? and some people in the stands are laughing. I'm really confused, and apparently, with the way I brought my paddle up to my head, I hit an inside out shot RIGHT back to where Jasna was standing, and she was too busy laughing to move (hence, Mark running into her). We had to pause for about....10 seconds? to gather ourselves together, it was HILARIOUS, it was AWESOME, it was INCREDIBLY LUCKY, i wish you all were there to see it.

Then after the day was over I played with Mike Meier, and it really helped loosen me up. I had nothing to lose, I was already supposed to not win against him so I went all out, and hew as really surprised because like when he came 3 months ago i wasn't playing like that. Adam was commentating over the microphone, it was a really funny event. I played really well. I mean, I lost, but I made him work for his W.

Hmm..where was I. Oh yeah, that night was the banquet where they awarded everyone and blah blah blah. For the first time, TWU had a clean sweep. Good for them! We had a great time, and none of the food there had meat!! and there were COOKIES!!! It was GREAT.


Afterwards we went to Nyo's or something, man, that Mike Meier is NEVER choosing an after-banquet-hang out place again, lol. He has a tendency to choose places with hicks. But we were there, and there were $1 drinks! Well, just beer and juice and soda, my cape cod was $7, but these were in 32oz cups!


So then we boned out and then went to High Street which I guess was their downtown. We had to go to a couple of places before we settled on one cuz Garrett's 20. At first I was like eh, bummer, we have to go to a 18+ :( but it was a LOT of fun, and I really don't know if a 21+ would have been as fun. Jason and I set the mood after we had a couple of drinks. A song I love came on (i can't remeber which song) and I started dancing, Jason joined, and soon I hear people screaming and a circle form. Dudes, I need to think of new moves. And I need to not have my phone in my pocket when I dance so I can get low.


Seriously, look at all those people. I was standing next to him til I decided to take pix. It was really funny, Jason got tired of dancing so he stepped out into the circle, and i was like dude! you have to tag someone! So he dug deep and took out -- SHAILA!! She is the CUTEST thing on the PLANET. She looked so scared, she didn't know what to do, it looked like! So she searched and looked for me after like 2 seconds of "attempted" dancing, and she pulled me into the circle and was like "Chloe! Teach me!" So I was like okay, and tried to teach her what everyone got riled up about, but she didn't want to do that so I did the move your head from side to side thing. Hard to explain. And she got that and we had so much fun! I am so glad it was me dancing iwth her, haha! So then we were done and some strangers came into the middle with a BUNCH of energy. Highlights of the night include dancing with "certain" people HAHAHAHA. hm, maybe I shouldn't say it out loud. Thanks to the PR coach who kept handing me tissues, lol. Also, I was victim first time ever of Jor's sneak attacks -- and it worked! I was proud / embarassed.

So SOME PEOPLE (our co-ed team) had matches at 9am so we had to leave at 2am, sad. We headed back and conked out. We girls had a bye, so we dint have to play til noon (which we were SO HAPPY about!!). But we were really worried in the morning..we waited for the shuttle at 10:45 but it didn't come!! blah blah a lot of things happened, we ended up calling like eveyrone we knew and caught a shuttle and got there like at 11:55. We were pissed / nervous because we had to play the team who won btwn OSU and U of Maryland, and they were already warm while we were cold...we got there, warmed up for about 10 min and then started our matches. I won my match!! I was so happy! I played well and cho-ed and YES!-ed harder with each point. Jaydi finished her match before I finished mine, and she won, and Shaila won hers, so that was 3-0 us to play for 6th and 7th. I was happy because even tho we didn't get as much practice as we wanted we still won. I think playing with Mike the night before really helped. We played Berkeley next. Connie told me beforehand that the girl who I was supposed to play was tough. So I was like great, thanks Connie, but at the same time, it really was good. Apparently she was somewhere around the 1900 range so there was no pressure on me to win. It was weird cuz this chick had pips on her forehand and inverted on her backhand. I totally forgot what Connie had said about her being 1900 when I started playing. When my opponent ripped out a backhand loop, I got a little nervous. I lost 1-3, but I took a game off her and all the games were REALLY close. I don't think I ever got less than 8 in a game (wait, I think in the second game I got 2 points..). So it's a good sign when I'm coming close to and taking off games from like 1700 or out-of-practice-1900 players. Shaila won her match, but Jaydi and Connie lost theirs, so we lost 1-3. It's ok, we ended up with 7th place out of 14. We seem to be getting lower every year...the boys ended up coming like 16th out of 25 or something.

So then we went to the airport and our flight was delayed to Chicago because Chicago was experiencing bad weather. Our flight was supposed to leave at 6:30, we left at 9:30. I met this kid who was solving a rubik's cube and I showed him a move. His family wanted to see me solve it and they recorded me doing it, lol. The guy who mixed up the cube was like, I'll give you 5 minutes. I was like ok! I'll do it in less than 2. I finished in 1.5 minutes. Or like 1:35, I can't remember. That's good. My average when I'm practicing is like 1:15. Also while we were waiting for our flight to leave out of Columbus Adam brought out a table and put his shoes as a net and the Posse and some Berkeley and the Portland State teams all played ping pong in the middle of the walkway. it was HILARIOUS, it was one of the BEST and most AMUSING things to happen that weekend. People were staring, we were being loud, we called let when families or carts came by, I called out a guy with a camera and scolded him for using flash, it was awesome. When we got on the plane, Adam asked the guy to announce that the airport tt champion was boarding the plane. Everyone laughed when they heard him, and Adam took the speaker and started a thank you speech, AHHAHAA. So we had to sit in the plane for a while and wait for the ok to go. During the end of the flight Adam told this guy that I can solve a rubik's cube and of course they wanted to see it and half didn't believe I could solve it in 1.5 minutes. That was one of the biggest crowds I'd ever had. Plus, they were countingthe seconds out loud in the back, and that made me nervous. I messed up doing the bottom layer, so that took valuable seconds. It was also the first time I solved a cube above my head (so everyone can see). Well anyway we missed our connection flight to LA cuz we were delayed and stayed at Jason's place last night. His family was VERY hospitable, esp his sister. It was a fun night. Jennifer's bed is very comfortable. VERY!! I just got in from LAX at 4. oh yeah, so since we wanted to be on the 10:00 plane to LAX, but we didn't make standby, they just put all our luggage on THAT plane for us to pick up when we arrived today. I couldn't find one of my duffels today. I looked in that luggage room, went to the carousel to see if it was on our plane that we arrived on, then went back to that room and found it buried under other suitcases. I was starting to get really pissed. So anyway I got home around 4:30 and I'm really tired and I have a headache so I'm goign to brush my teeth and go to sleep.

So..I got assessed for ADD / ADHD today.

Date:	2007-03-19 23:50
Subject:	WRONG end of the table
Security:	Public
Mood:	confoozled

Gah, I just had one of the worst (but the best) rallies with Dennis today. I loopsmashed a ball and he was already backed up, and he meant to lob it but since penholders suck at lobbing he hit the ball with the side of his paddle and made it underspin REALLY high into the air. At first I thought it wasn't going to make the table, but when I realized it had close-to-the-net table-hitting potential, I ran up the left side of the table since I'm right handed and wrongly thought it would be smart to try to hit that ball with my forehand. The ball bounced on my side RIGHT next to the net:

          |--------------------|
{me}                        O

So that's me next to the table, with the ball bouncing on my side. Then I reached out and swung:

          |----------------O--|
{me} >>>>>>>3   

The >>>>3 is my arm. I extended my arm fully, but I couldn't reach the ball. All the while trying not to touch the net. So I basically missed, and I tried to fruitlessly argue that the ball went over the net so it was my point since he didn't get it. Yeah, like that went very far. The argument was so bad I didn't even finish one sentence before I collapsed on the table laughing at the ball going back over. I mean, I've seen people show me underspin balls in serves. I'm just like, why don't you always serve like that? It'll just go back over the net without your opponent touching it. Esp if he's a kid. And if he does touch it, so what? It's got heavy underspin. Oh, but it has to bounce high to make it back over. And if it's that high your opponent could flip it. If he were Ericowens.

Last Thursday Starbucks was giving out free 12oz coffee drinks. Just black. I got one. I don't drink coffee. I didn't know what to do with it. Cream? Sugar? How do I like my coffee? I don't know, I don't drink coffee. I just wanted one. Cuz it was free. Why am I so Asian? Oh, right. Cuz that kid peeing off the balcony told me I am. I just gave the coffee to Drew who really appreciated it, even after Sean revealed that it was free.

I'm going to stop having PB&J sammiches. They keep giving me stomach aches for some reason. Maybe it's the bread that's high in whole grains, wheat and fiber that makes me have to go to the bafoom. I love PB&J though!! Well, I'm lactose intolerant and I still eat ice cream..but the stomach aches from the sandwiches are much more painful and gaseous.

I'm really busy this week. Dude, last week, I went to CPK AND BJ's in a matter of like, two days. BJ's was soooo good, avocado egg rolls were DELICIOUS, and we had the spinach and artichoke pizza -- also delicious!! All topped off with a pizookie. Wait, so why do I feel fat? Man, I want to look hot, but I keep eating so much. I loved our meal so much that I made Scott agree to take me there tomorrow. I'M SO EXCITED to see Scott muh bott!! Okay Scott, we're getting one of everything and sharing it all. And when I mean "share" i mean you have half an egg roll and I have the rest. NO! PLEASE make sure I don't walk out of the restaurant bent over dying unable to walk cuz I stuffed myself silly cuz I always do when i eat with you. I had CPK on Friday with Keith, our waiter THERE was cool too! Chris from Brazil. He totally had an American accent! I was like, are you really from Brazil! and he goes, I have dual citizenship..I mean, it's better than Gardena...true. Keith and I got two pizzas, one was CA Club w/o the meat and the other one I don't remember the name but it had Japanese (which tastes and looks like regular / American?) eggplant. I LOVE EGGPLANT! It's SO good. I was FAMISHED! I can't believe I ate faster than Keith did. I half-lapped him.

So yeah, BJ's tmr w/ Scott, and then game nite and / or cheesecake party on Friday, Reseda tournament this weekend (I CAN'T WAIT! bah, I'm playing in the u1250..), clubbing at V20 with Den, Steven and Rosalyn on Sat night with a CHS reunion party on Sunday. how fun! wowooooooowowoow.

I spoke to Eliot today. Holy mofo! Haven't heard from him in a while. I spoke to Anson last night too. I took part in giving him very interesting conversation. Yay for interesting conversations!

I had a chance to interview with a company last week. Then I found out that my ex works there. That's not good. I turned down the interview due to ...just plain awkwardness.

My uncle's birthday was last week. I realized it when I looked at the calendar that day and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Or maybe not a ton of bricks, but like, you know the intensity you feel when your internet doesn't work? I felt surprised to that extent. I didn't know how to feel. I still haven't spoken to him at all since we split. I keep remembering random things about him. I think I still think about him everyday. This one time I was writing an email to my cousin (my mom, my uncle and her dad are all siblings, so her dad isn't the crazy uncle) and she mentioned about how her days were boring at home or something, then I told her that I was going to Arc Machines (her dad and the crazy one work there) and it was boring there too. I was surprised to see my uncle peeking over my shoulder, reading that. He saw it and his feelings got hurt I think, and yet he still brought me to his work. That's an example of his selfishness. I was in hs, of course I wanted to hang out with friends. But no, he brought me to his work that he knew I thought was boring, so he could keep and eye on me. I have NO IDEA why I put up with it for so long. I was completely brainwashed, he was a wolf under sheep's clothing. Except he didn't know he was a wolf. I honestly think that he thought he was doing me a favor. A very expensive one. I always wondered why my life was so different from everyone else's in hs. Like, no other parents made their kids commit to caring for them when they were old. I keep having these stupid daydreams where like we'll be at a family reunion or something with his gf if he has one, and I'll blow up at him and tell him he ruined my hs years and I had very few friends or power over my own life and I never made any of my own decisions and I cried everyday and I was completely miserable. Then I'd get to the point where I hope he has NO kids because they will go through the same hell I went through. Then his gf will be shocked, and possibly pregnant, scared to death. I'll tell her (without knowing she was pregnant) to never have kids with this man because he's overpossessive, judgemental, hypocritical, a liar, overprotective, jealous, has a skewed vision on life and love, oversensitive, constantly overreacting..by this time she's gone out the door to find a new daddy for her baby. Revenge, I seek? Ruining his life cuz he made mine miserable? See, I wouldn't be so pissed if he learned what he did wrong. I am still pissed off at him and want bad things to happen to him because he din't learn from this experience. At first he was like I'm sorry, and being all crying and all that wet faced stuff. And then he had the courage to lecture me ONE MORE TIME FOR AN HOUR about how he was just giving and how I just want to go out and etc. THEN he has the balls to be like, so are you gonna call me to catch a movie sometime? And I just wanted to get off the phone so I said yes. I already put the phone down for like 50 minutes not listening to him. I should have just said "I dont care for your bs" and hung up. He couldn't have done anything. I also blame him for my being not skinny. He always fed me bad stuff. Fast food and other bad stuff. He has high blood pressure and strokes. And he's chubby. Well, he was. Don't know how he is in the 4 (4?!) years since I've seen him.

So I had a dream about him that night, he was just in one of his dark blue / purple polos. I just saw him from a side glance, from a small distance away. I wonder if he dreams about me. He probably thinks about me everyday. And how he fucked up his life by trying to ruin mine. Take that, life ruiner. I hope you never have kids.

I also had a dream about Saul. It was REALLY fast though. I was at the beach and he literally like flew by. Him and the one I can't work with. Weird. I have such weird experiences with people in life. Then I dream about them.

What should I wear on Saturday?

Date:	2007-03-17 17:17
Subject:	Yes, I'm Asian
Security:	Public
Mood:	offended?

Last week or maybe it was last last week..uh..sometime this month I was pulling up one evening to my lovely Troy garage. I saw these two guys standing on their balcony, and one guy was peeing off of it into the bushes and leaves on the floor. I opened my window to slide my card to open the gate, and glanced up to see what the trickling noise was and hence found out he was peeing. I turned away quickly, as I don't like to give people attention when they cry for it like that. I hear the guy go, "Hey, Asian! Yeah, this is real!"




.....







Did he just scream, "Hey, Asian!"?????



What was I supposed to say? "Hey, Whitey, no one wants to see your Caucasian piss come out of your White cock."



"Hey, Asian!"???? "Hey, girl" would have been better, at least. No one in my life has ever addressed me like that before. Is it ok to feel a bit offended?!?! It's just not that PC, but who is all the time?



Seriously. Some people are so stupid. That apt has a toilet, I'm sure.

wow, what has happened since you last read about me.

Well let me tell you about my really cool waiter at BJ's. I saw him and I was like, he looks like somebody. Later I figured out that he could have been Keanu Reeves's brother or something, the resemblance was amazing.  So when I finally reached my conclusion, I told him that I thought he looks like Keanu Reeves, and he actually turned out to be doing film. He had a chance to be Keanu's photo double, but turned it down because he didn't want to be Keanu's double, he wanted to be his on his own. So anyway, I told him "thank you Keanu" and he goes "YOU'RE WELCOME." and walked away like he had a stick up his butt just like Keanu!! His voice and the way he turned around was so funny, I was cracking up for the longest time, even after everyone stopped laughing. I found it hilarious!! Ah, I love awesome waiters.

Yesterday I played American Idol at Jason's. I lost like twice. I have to stick to safe songs now. Jason helped me get to round 12. Finals are next!! Nervous..